The Caffeine Junkie and Her Escapades
“Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man.” Ecc 12:13Archive for September, 2007
Episode 243: waiting redux
I’m afraid it’s been too long to try to find the reasons why
I let my world close in around a smaller patch of fading sky
But now I’ve grown beyond the walls to where I’ve never been
And it’s still winter in my wonderland
I’m waiting for the world to fall
I’m waiting for the scene to change
I’m waiting when the colors come
I’m waiting to let my world come undone
I close my eyes and try to see the world unbroken underneath
The farther off and already it just might make the life I lead
A little more than make-believe when all my skies are painted blue
And the clouds don’t ever change the shape of who I am to You
When I catch the light of falling stars my view is changing me
My view is changing me
Jars of Clay, Waiting for the world to fall
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Someone wisecracked that when you stand on the shoulders of giants, you feel cold. Yet in this winter wonderland, I’m still waiting for the colours to come, and for scenes to unfold. My view is changing me.
Thinking about this coming Monday makes me sad, it is the first step towards the slippery slope of dying dreams. My view is changing me.
Oh, if the clouds do not ever change the shape of who I am to You; then, at least, may I never be so ungrateful to let the clouds change the shape of who You are to me.
Episode 242: threes and trees
three hours of sleep is not a very good thing when one is used to nine, but the proposal is finally in! (say i do!)
three sleep-deprived people sat in the forum for three hours just talking nonsense and recalling absolutely nothing we said. i love R&S. 
and their random blabbers.
trees are something i miss sitting under. the LTP speaker mentioned my melbourne church, and i miss that lifestyle muchos.
family trees – shake them hard enough and a few nuts would drop out
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the hols are here
Episode 241: waiting
while i was waiting for my essay to write itself, my brain started thinking random thoughts. one of which included a retort. Should people blame me for judging them next time, my retort would be, “well, my parents wanted me to.” cuz well, they did name me after one. *smirks*
maybe i should be more active while waiting for my essay to write itself. maybe if i am not in front of the screen with a mountain of books and journal articles, the keys would go tippity-tappity and coax the essay out from the minds of my trusty Lenny.
i shall proceed to watch another season of Simpsons then. Toodles!
Episode 240: mopey
humphs. i is mopey. *whines*
this is the first time i encounter a prof from cretin uni bring forward an assignment by two weeks, which includes reading a 600pg book. so next monday, ism lit review, tues asshat’s TWO assignments, and friday, HT proposal.
coupled with my stomach sneezing, a fieldtrip and a career recruitment talk tmr, i deserve a chocolate cupcake with peanut butter frosting. or just any cupcake with frosting. or just frosting. oh but said stomach will sneeze it out “either end”… bah.
mopey. do not like life now.
mummyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. mopey.
mopey.
Episode 239: pitter patter of tiny steps
God is cool, He “answers” hopes in unexpected ways. Was just hoping that I could make more friends in geog class, to go beyond the group I’m so comfortable with cuz we’ve been best buds foreverrrrrrrrrr. and sometimes when you’re with friends who know your warts and all (and love you all the same, well..almost! except for a couple of quirks here and there) it is easy to just laugh in class, go for breaks/lunch together and forget that other people exist.
so after dinner at Marina-square with MS and Co., I walked to take 106 opposite Raffles-city. After seating down, i thought i saw that the reflection in the glass panel was the back of the guy who always hangs out with A in geog class, whom i’ve never spoken to. as usual, being lazy and thin-skinned, i decided to stay put.
but aiyah, life cannot always be thin-skinned right? without calluses, next time fall down even more painful. plus my heart started beating faster to the tune of altar-call song#9: “go forward go forward”. so i did. and it was easy to break the ice with the usual “hey! i’m *insert name* from geog hons”. and the ride home was fun, cuz i realised we got a lot in common, esp mugging patterns (which is always a good thing!).
one thing even better, over the course of the past 4 weeks and as today has once again showed, i realised my potential thesis topic opens up a lot of doorways in conversations. without fail, i will always get to talk about the other person’s religion. which is super! cuz religion is one of those issues that most people avoid talking about and now i’ve got such an easy conversation starter. 
*twirls in a happy pattern*
i is pleased. and God is cool.
Episode 238: who would have thought?
i’m being matchmade to a thai divorcee. as post-modern as i believe my life is, this takes the cake. i don’t know whether to laugh or to cry
Episode 237: trying redux
i woke up this morning and thought it was friday. the events of every monday is too much to handle. and then the cretin from cretinuni came into my mind again. and i fumed the entire day.
so i decided to wear something as a protest against cretin.
so i wore a shirt where the print was two overlapping circles, each with a circle within them, and three spikes at each end of the outer circle. here’s why.
- the three spikes are anti-codons. message to cretin “all my RNA fumes at you”
- the larger circle is the cytoplasm. message to cretin “all my cytoplasm fumes at you”
- the inner circle is the nucleus. message to cretin “not only does my DNA fume at you, my children will inherit these genes/alleles/whatever and will fume at you too, from the next generation”
i was angry all the way to night. i don’t think i’ve had this protracted fuming before. quite tiring actually.
why, in the name of puff the magic dragon, do you exist?
Episode 236: trying
i’m really trying to love you, but you are not giving me the chance to. *flings body at oncoming onslaught of alleles*
so upsetting.
